Passion oh passion

That is my status in my facebook now. I just feel depressed with the activities I do every day. For almost three years, I do a job that doesn’t reflect what I really love. Sad and bad feels for sure!! I guess it must be good if you work based on your passion, you won’t feel those activities as a job, but as an activities that you really love to do and you will be paid for doing that. Oh gosh, I want to cry sometimes. This is just an activity that I need to do to fulfill my financial needs. It doesn’t reflect what I want. This is not making me smarter than before. I need to end this as soon as possible. I need to find what I really love to do. Ya.. ya.. ya.. (Gen, you have already said that statement since hmm..wait.. Hmm yup, since 2 years ago, I guess!) Damn, time flies so fast, and I still the same as I am in 2 years ago, no big progress in life! Hiks!

Just wanted to write

Since my English capability is not well. So I decided to combine this blog into 2 languages. I desperately want to have a very good English capability and my dearest friend told me to practice it by blogging in English. Yes, I love to write, so it is good way to start blogging. At the first time I fully hard tried to write in English, even I ask my friend to review it before it published. But sometimes, lack of good grammar, made me stuck in write and finally cancel to publish. So right now, I decided to write it in 2 languages. The most important thing is I just want to share to others. I am not good in telling something directly, so write it into notes is more acceptable. :)

3 years & 10 Months

Today is August 13Th. Yes another 13 date. It is my anniversary date with my beloved Mamas. It's almost 4 years we have been together. It will be 4 years at October 13Th. Doesn't it too long? Yes, it is I guess. I hope it will have happy ending at the end. Hope Allah will give all the best for both of us. Amin.

Three ‘Girls’ Musketeers in action

Last month I had a holiday with my office colleagues. We went to Bali. Yes, just three of us. If I remind the process before the holiday can be realized, it was so dramatically. We had already booked the ticket since a half year before, and badly we had to pending it and move it to other month because we had the event at the same date. Each of us faced a lot of life problems, which made we lose the excitement about it. Luckily, we found our spirit back at the moment we had to go. And the last, asked leave day to our boss was not an easy way. Three employees took the same date to leave, well, in a lot of company, that couldn’t be accepted. But thanks to Allah, He made our boss gave his sign to our leave approval.

At Bali, each time became our unforgettable moment. Touring with the rent car, reading the map all time long of the journey, moving from hotel to hotel, whistling every time we want to took a bath, it decide who went to took a bath first, and doing whist again to won the turn to sleep alone in large bed while 2 others had to sleep together. Drove the car to the downhill road, especially for women driver, it was totally not easy thing, but we did it. My friend did it I mean. We also learned to drove, and somehow, the car machine is smoked while we learned to drive. Thanks to the owner to fixed the car while we enjoyed the beach. And believe it or not, I just ate once a day and the rest others, we always ‘nyobek’ which means we ate the breads while waiting the eat time. And still more silly activities that we enjoyed that very much.

Each moment taught us to know each others better; we learned how to face each other. When one of us felt in high emotion, the others tried to calm her. We tried to understand each others. We also learned to make a decision to take together. And absolutely, it full of smiles, laughs, and blessed feels to Allah in every time we saw the beauty of His creation in every place we visited.

Our initial name


White sand At Nusa Dua Beach

Nusa Dua Beach


At Uluwatu


At GWK


At Pura Besakih


Beautiful sunset at Kuta Beach

Every time I saw sunset and sunrise, slowly I sang Lembayung Bali lyric by Saras Dewi. Yes I was on Bali and saw the sunset directly in here. The song feels so deep for me. I am going to miss those memories very much. Hope we can always be good friends’ girls, friends of life.

Menatap lembayung di langit Bali
dan kusadari betapa berharga kenanganmu
Di kala jiwaku tak terbatas
bebas berandai memulang waktu

Andai ada satu cara
tuk kembali menatap agung surya-Mu
lembayung Bali

(Lembayung Bali - Saras Dewi)

Song list

Last week I met the street singer who was singing a song beautifully. He made me feel like I was on Café, not at the bus. His voice was so soft and beautiful. His guitar’s sound collaborated with his voice turn into an adorable music. It’s a perfecto package for me. Maybe sound like a wonderful acoustic music. He sang three songs, which are consisting of:

1. Tak kan terganti by Yovie
2. Over The rainbow by Anne Muray
3. I don’t know about the third song, because I have to go down from the bus

It made me imagine and dream that someday when I am getting married, the sound music will be acoustic, which is played by the singer who has soft sounds and accompanied by acoustic music. And they will sing all about love song. That will be great! And I also imagine about the song list, it should be consisted of it:

1. Don’t Sleep Away Tonight by Glen Fredly
2. Aku cinta Padamu by Glen Fredly
3. Buat aku tersenyum by Sheila On 7
4. Hingga Ujung Waktu by Sheila On 7
5. From this moment by Shania Twain
6. and still more

And I do love the songs of Sheila on 7, like buat aku tersenyum and Hingga ujung waktu. Both songs tell about how to keep our love in unperfected conditions. Like when faces the problems, faces the anger, growing old, when beauty is no longer important or slowly turns into the weak body and being fat for examples. But both songs tell us that the love is still there. Love is still there among the unperfected and the weakness of our life partner. Isn’t it wonderful? Loving our partner truly madly deeply with all off his strength and weakness? Not only love his /her beautiful or handsome look, but also loving him/her when they depressed, they growing old and fat, or when they have had a bad tempered. For me, that is the meaning of love in real.

So people, when you have planned to get marry please choose wisely the song in your wedding day. It is probably not the most important thing to be done, but it will complete your big day. And please, do not choose the songs with incompatible lyric. The lyric which is tell about sadness, says goodbye, or break up. I still hear the songs with those lyric in some weddings. The music is probably good and well known, but not the lyric. It is not match at all for the wedding.

Oh Gosh, I should be work in wedding stuff, I love it very much!